To Be Here

To ask what I am doing here
When I should be somewhere else
Is not something I would like to answer any more.
It hurts.
It hurts to think more about something that is already on my mind all the time in any case.
Like a cyclical overlap.

But somewhere You teach me to wait,
And gain the fruits of patience,
Meritoriously.

Maybe, my being here,
Alone,
Doing this,
Right now,
Will lead to my being there,
With You,
Doing that.

- Vinaykrishnan.